My Testimony

Who I am, Thanks to God

I was born in a small town by the name of Cowpens SC in 1961. I am the daughter of a very hard-working, God-loving mother and a very skillful carpenter for a dad. My dad fought many demons and was mentally a sick man. I loved him very much despite his problems. He and my mother divorced when I was 10 years of age. I became withdrawn, and sad. I found the greatest escape in my animals. My dog and my pony. From 1st grade to 12th grade being bully was more of a way of life back then. You just tried to ignore it. I had an older sister and a younger brother. I actually did not get along with them too well. But that was my choice, not theirs. I fell in love and married at age 18. By the age of twenty, I had two beautiful daughters and their dad had left. In 1983 I was divorced and going on my second marriage. Remarried and starting a new life in 1984 my oldest daughter was run over by a riding lawnmower. In 1985 I was divorced again. My girls and I were alone. In 1986 I was diagnosed with cancer in the fourth stage. In 1990 I remarried and by 1992 my girls and I were on our own again. Through each turmoil, God showed his mercy, his grace, and his love for me and my girls. He was there all along. In 1994 I was at Charleston Medical University having work done on my back due to a degenerative disc. In 1995 my oldest daughter was hospitalized for an eating disorder. In 1996 my youngest daughter was pregnant by a whom I considered a family friend. In 1997 I married again but by 2003 I was divorced again. I still struggled with my own demons. I still continued to make bad choices one after another. I blame only myself for my mistakes. I started praying to God for understanding and guidance. He started showing me what It was I was doing wrong all these years. I never knew I was to have a personal relationship with God. I began working on it and spending time with God. I changed my playmates and playground. In 2013 God brought me the man he wanted me to have and I thank him every day for him. I have to work daily on my relationship with God. Each poem I write is about a certain thing I have experienced or a story that has inspired me along my way. But one thing is for sure, God gives the message and I am the messenger on ''The Wings of a Dove.''
Romans 12:2     
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